):
It wearies me; you say it wearies you;
But how I caught it, found it, or came by it,
What stuff 'tis made of, whereof it is born,
I am to learn;
And such a want-wit sadness makes of me,

However, sometimes,
you just can't figure out the reason
no matter how hard you think."

Day 1

Crossed the custom at 11.30. that means, totally no connection at all. Haha. In other words, Im like experiencing life with no connection for 4 days.

Reached KL at 3.30. Unpack everything and stuff and slept at about 4+. End up waking up at 2pm the next day. Totally slack and did nothing the whole of today.

What I like about coming to Malaysia is the food. Yumyumyum. Wanton mee was awesome! Get to drink my favourite soup here. Always look forward to the next meal. Although I have no idea why it is always delayed.

Like for today, since I slept until 2+, I ate lunch at 3 plus. Dinner at 8+, while normally my lunch would be 12 going to 1, dinner 7.

I still remembered I once had dinner at 11. Dinner cum supper. (y)
If Im not wrong, my relatives all waited for us to reach KL and then had dinner together. Actually we reached at 9-10, but I have no idea why there is a delay.

Today was quite awesome, despite the fact that I had no connection to the world. There was this Incheon Music Show. Awesome ttm! :D:D:D
Although I believed it was already shown in kbs, but still it is awesome. Lala. Many bands performed, like Secret, 4Minute, FT Island, CN Blue, MBLAQ, BEAST, SHINee, SNSD, KARA, Super Junior. Awesomeee.

It was then followed my strong heart. Laughed like mad with mum, since she watch together with me. Finally mum get to appreciate Korean stuff. HAHAHA. I guess now she knows the reason why I would laugh to myself in front of the computer, then she would always go “xiao xiao xiao, hen hao xiao meh?”

Wondering if there would be more awesome stuff tomorrow. Tomorrow’s gonna be another emo at home day, since no one is free to bring us out.

Holiday’s gonna end soon, and I still have many things undone.. Shall hope tomorrow be the day to finish most of my stuff, if not im not gonna come back. Heh, just joking.

I miss home now. Geez. Few days ago I was still wanting to be in the car, since everyone is away. Actually, I miss the world, since there is no connection here. But, this is the best time to be disconnected with the world. Everyone’s all not contactable, in a sense, so it doesn’t make any difference. Lala.

Last night, had this weird dream, which I thought it was real. I mean, I don’t really see it as a dream, until I woke up and think about it again, to realize I actually dreamt last night kind of feeling.

So here is what I have dreamt last night. Someone texts me to ask me to go down to the void deck to play.

Crap, I forget my dream when I typed the previous sentence. Whatever. So, something just happened, must be I replied and I forgot.

Well, dreams are meant to be weird in a sense, like they won’t easily happened in real life. Like my dream last night, I remembered I was in Malaysia. Supposedly I should not have any connection which means no sms, no phone calls, then how in the world can I receive that sms. Weird.

What’s worse, the person is in Singapore, while I am in Malaysia. And if I didn’t remembered wrongly, the person didn’t know I am currently in Malaysia. Oh whatever, I still can’t recalled what happened next. I have no idea why I am dreaming about you.

Neorago. Yes, that song is playing while I typed this post in Malaysia.
Some of you might have seen it in my twitter, saying neorago. You might wonder what does that means. It means: “Its you”. Neorago.

Shall continue what I want to say in the next post. This is quite a long post. Haha.

Neorago. ♥

Day 2

As usual in Malaysia, I would slept until past 12 and then wake up to eat my breakfast cum lunch. Today’s menu is kong ba pao. Awesome. Ate every meal until I am fuller than full. Heh. To add on, there was red bean soup for dessert. :D

Dinner was scrumptious. Many dishes as compared to normal. Soup, as usual, my favourite. To add on, there was curry and fried chicken wing. I love the food here. Like even though it is still home-cooked food, it gave me a more homely taste as compared to the ones in Singapore. The cooks are still the same, but it tasted different, more delicious. Can’t wait for tomorrow’s dinner outside with more relatives. :D

I bet I will gain more than a kg heavier with all the nice and awesome food. Every meal is awesome. Plus slacking and stuff = more weight gain. Whatever. I shall just be a happy kid for once. Hehe. :D

Freak. There is a spider in my room. I dare not sleep now. Crap.

In the night, everything is pitch darkness, where would the spider craw to, I don’t know. Why am I scaring myself. Where did it even appear from?

Time really pass fast. It is already my second day here and tomorrow will be my last day. Kind of have the yi yi bu she ness in me. ):

I still remembered how I didn’t like to go back from Malaysia to Singapore. And I will end up crying. I have no idea why. I would always look forward to spend my holiday here and when it is time to get back, I would wish this day never come.

Then one fine day, I didn’t feel like going back, and I longed coming back home. And ever since then, I didn’t really like the thought of coming back. Like until now, even though I may have the yi yi bu she ness in me, I would still miss life back at home. Too much of wsbb influence.

Jiayi should be back at home, safe and sound, right now. Haha.

Lala, my music player is playing falling in love with a friend. Shall end my post here, listen to ryeowook’s awesome voice and sleep. Life is just that great.

Falling in love with a friend…

Day 3

Normal day. Lalala. Had dinner at some restaurant. Food was fabulous.
Plus I saw my long time never see cousins. Miss them alot. Lalala.

Day 4

HELLO SINGAPORE!

My title says it all. :D Im going to malaysia all the way until tuesday.
Lala, miss me. :D


I have a sad life, the title says it all.

Lala. Enjoying my GRAPE milktea all thanks to shangyin.
One fine (spring) day, I decided to reach earlier for shangyin. And yet, shangyin is cancelled.
Finally when I'm not just on time but earlier than normal, its cancelled.
I have a sad life. And I only receive news when I am like two stops away.

So, I carried my qin from house to mrt to eunos and back, just to end up with a GRAPE milktea home. Stupid aunty didn't hear my order and gave me PLAIN milktea. And the same aunty was at the stall again, and I strongly believe she recognised me. Whatever, at least I enjoyed my grape flavoured milktea today.

Everyone is away. D: Im left alone to emo at home. Haha. JiaYi flied off yesterday, eezhen's gonna drive off tomorrow. Adorabelle is flying off too, and so is Alexia. Tan must be slacking in Taiwan now. ZhiXian's "gonna play and eat till i drop", and so is Janessa. What about me?

FOREVER ALONE. BAHAHA.

Ok, I have a sad life. Since EeZhen and WeiTing have started to 推票, I shall start too. But I am afraid in the end to space for my own parents. That would be the biggest joke on earth. But since it is at esplanade, it should be big enough right? But still...

Nvm, I will have another pass! BAHAHA. After talking to JiaYi, I realise my aim to collect 10 before I turn 18 seems to be impossible. Hence, I shall reduce to 5. :D And since I already have 3 by next year, means I just need another 2. HAHAHA. But it would be great to collect 10.

Cool cool passes. I like. :D

Looking forward to next year, well not for school reopen though.
Gonna have gongyan @ esplanade, which means I will have my pass.
Gonna go chuguo which means I will have an extra chop in my passport.
And its gonna be my first time to go China, to go ChangCheng, to go chuguo with dhsco! That also means alumni gonna come. Me like me like me like.
The above 2 events would also mean there would be paiwei. No comments.
Gonna have SYF which means gonna have jiapais, well provided Im in.
If not, I'm gonna appeal to zhangls ask her throw me to zhongruan or something, idk.

Random thought: my hair grew. heh.
And Im still contemplating if I should cut it again before school reopen or just let it grow and get caught or look weird or idk.
Why does the hair of other's grow so fast when my grow at such slow pace? D:
Im experiencing the state where by I look weird if I don't tie, I look weird if I tie, so what now? D:

LALA. Someone come talk to me before I rot. Bye.



HIHIHI. I'm back into blogging since I have the sudden urge to do so. Many many cool things have been happening these few days. So I'm gonna blog in case I have nothing to do in the future and go read my archives.





HAPPY 5TH ANNIVERSARY SUPER JUNIOR!


I want to blog, but idk what to blog abt. Oh well.

Someone save me. D:
abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz.

yay, 30 sept.
it shall be our big day.
for you and for me.
may you give me the strength to carry on.
your song shall be daebak, while my eoy shall also be daebak.
:D

rw ftw. (:


It was now then I realise how I can remember things only through blogging.
I tried looking at my old blog posts and realise that I have changed. Idk if its better or worse, because right now, I don't even know who I am, what I am doing. A simple theory: Life sucks when you can't get what you want.
If everything happens have a reason, the only reason why I am typing this is because I haven't found any reason to what happen.

However, sometimes, you just can't figure out the reason no matter how hard you think. Perhaps, the only easiest way to say is unfair. But this unfairness sometimes is too over.

I just don't understand why.
But so what? Is there even a need to understand why? So what if I understand?

我就不相信没有你我做不到。 Im not gonna care anymore.
"And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need.""

11.11 :D

Because of this date, it made a huge difference to my life.
And even up till today, I still remember it, although those memories have been deleted. ):
Maybe you don’t even know abt how this come about, but still…

“Happy anniversary x1. :D Perhaps you have forgotten what day it is. Or should I say, you don’t even know what happen. But well, its ok, cos I know. :D”

Have been reading on my old old post and realise I should really start/continue to reblog as it seriously reminds me of great wonderful memories. But it also reminds me of others.

ithinkitssomehowimpossible.
yesitsimpossible.
anddonttellmenothingisimpossible.
tomeidontcarenow.
itdoesntreallymatter.
yesitdoesnt.
andyesimpissedwithyourwhateverattitude.
thatmakeitmoreimpossible.
itdoesntlastmorethanamin.
lookatthedifferencethechange
butsowhatcosimnotgonnacare.
liarliarliarwhatabigliaryouare.
ohsowhatimnotgonnacareanymore.
itdoesntmatter.
itreallydoesntmatter.

Reading chat history make me piss at times.

ohwtf.
don’ttrytogetyourwaythroughbytellingdumbstupidcraps.
thinkyouarealwaysrightwhenyouarenot.
comeandtellmehundredandonestupidreasonsthatyouarerightwhenyouarewrong.
cantyoujustshutupandadmityouarewrong.
nononoshutupandgiveasincereapology.
thinkonesorrycanjustsettlethingslikethatuseyourbrainspls.
tellmethatyoursorrywhenyournotohthenwhyevensayapologise.
giveastupidinsinceresorryandthensayyouareright.
saidyouhaveapologisewhenitisntsincereatall.
thencomeandlinktosomefreakingoutofpointstuffjusttoprovethatyouareright.
tellmetogetmyfactsrightwhenyoursarewronginthefirstplace.
ohwhatcrapisthat.
itsnotthefirsttimeithasrepeatedforgodknowshowmanytimes.
andyouarestilllikethatyouinsincerefreak.
comeandargueandreasonoutwhenyouaresodamnwrong.
goshevenathreeyearoldkidknowshowtoapologysincerelywhenheorsheisatfault.
whataboutyouallyougivearecrapscrapscraps.
andwhyamicaringsomuchsinceyouwanttobelikethis.
thensobeitimnogonnacareanymore.
thatsyourownproblemnotminenothersnotanyoneelse.
ifyoudontevenbothertogiveasincereapologythensobeit.
itsnotgonnaaffectmeanyway.
itsyouowndamnproblemok.

youdobigliarbigidiot.
ohmandidntisayimnotcaringatall.
andwhyimstilltypingallthese.
wasalreadyfeelingsopissedandnow.
ohwtfwhatintheworldishappening.
perhapsyouhaveforgottenallaboutmelonglongago.
imnowstillfeelingfreakingpissed.
eventhoughimnotusingcaps.
freakyoufreakyoufreakyou.
whyletmethoughtofhopeandnow.
ohfreakyou.
tryingtoignoremeavoidme.
goshhowiwishicoulddothatto.
ifyouwantitishalldoit.
howiwishyoucouldjustdisappearintheair.
andyesyouaredoingitagain.
tryingtoignoreme.
inamassconvertryingnottotalk.
andthenappearoffline.
whatthehellisthis.
letmetellyousomething.
idontlikethesilenceseriously.
nvmforgetaboutthis.
letmeclosethisblogforawhile.
ineedsomerest.
imsickandtiredofthis.
onceagainiseriouslydontknowwhy.
whyamipostingthis.
ihopethiscouldbethelastime.
idontwanttocareanymore.

Because its you. But, why. ):
我终於到达 但却更悲伤

I guess by the end of holiday, I will get fat. With all the food, eating and munching happens and that is how I get fat.

From the start of holiday until now, I guess I have gain alot of weight.
Celebrated last day of school with jiayi and went to eat kfc.
Ate 2 plates of beehoon, 1 plate of desserts. (for afternoon)
That night, my dad still ask me want go eat sushi.
Slept like some pig and woke up around 7 going 8 to eat dinner.
The later you eat at night, the fatter you will become.
Saturday, mac's breakfast for early lunch. Then ate some oily chicken wing near late afternoon.
Sunday, kfc for dinner. Even though it was my dad's portion, I koped some.
Monday, jixun day 1. Went to kfc for lunch. Ate alot of fries. Potato, starch, carbohydrates. ):
Went to macs to eat vanilla cone ice cream before going home.
Tuesday, jixun day 2. Went to eat wanton mee. Not as fattening.
But went to macs again to eat hotfudge sundae before going home.
Wednesday, jixun day 3. Went to macs for lunch. Ate some oily and fattening mcspicy. And finish whole lot of fries. Was too full to eat more ice cream and get fat.

You see, this is only the first week. And the best thing about jixun is to let you get fat. You eat so much and sit there for hours to play. Not even exercising. More fats. Going malaysia on friday. Go malaysia confirm will get fatter. There the food so nice. And will be sleeping like some dead pig cos nothing to do. Lunch and dinner will be like very late.

Holiday is the time to get fat. :D
Im a fat kid, and a fat kid is a happy kid. HEH.


click here. (:

nope, im not shifting. Just having 2 place for blogging, etc.
Words are at blogger, Pictures are at tumblr.
:D



Happy paYa Day!

Thanks everyone for the wishes! :D

Thanks Alexia, Catherine, YuTing for being the first to wish me! Felt you love! Thanks so much! Love those awesome drawings! Sorry to make you guys stayed up so late to wish me! Thank you very very much! I love you guys!

Thanks Farah for counting down together with me! And happy birthday too! :D Lets continue to count down for the rest of our birthdays! :D Haha. :D Yay.

Thanks Catherine to be the second person to wish me on msn! :D Although you also the first to wish me. HAHA. Thanks so much! <3 Thanks for spending so much effort to write out those korean words even though I can't read them. But still, thanks alot!

Thanks Alexia for wishing me personally too! NONO and MOMO rocks! :D HAHA. PAYA rocks too! :D Thanks for the drawings and the rose! :D Thanks so much! <3

Thanks Yu Ting for attempting to wish me as much as I wished her, even though she failed. Haha. Try harder next year! :D I won't let you break my record. Haha. :D Thank you very much! :D

Thanks Adorabelle for wishing me through sms, though I only received it on 21 may due to camp. Thanks alot! I love you! :D So sweet! Haha. PAYA rocks! :D Lets meet up some day! Miss you! :D

Thanks Yue Ying for wishing me through sms too. And thanks for you keychain! Haha. Thanks! :D

Thanks Tammie for wishing me on facebook. :D HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOO! :D Haha. :D

Thanks Yen Ping for wishing me on facebook. Startong loves Octi! :D Haha. Who lives in a __________ under the sea, STARTONG AND OCTI! Heh. :D

Thanks Hui Yi, Jun Ting and Xin Yun for wishing me on facebook too!

Thanks Clarissa for wishing me on the day itself, even though you don't know it was my birthday. Haha.

OH. Thanks Hui Yi(dhs) for wishing me! Happy birthday too!

I ROCK! :D
Yea, and thank god for making lvl camp so awesome and let me sprain my ankle as a present.
Haha.


This is a summary of how Awesome April is. :D

01 April 2010
To start of, we have the oh-so-memorable 2nd year 2008 syf anniversary. :D
Though we might just be some neighbourhood school with only a silver, but what we have gone through during those period of training and hardwork is the most important.
So what if it isn't a gold, at least we have tried to play with our best. :D
CO rocks. :D

And the spamming email chats on facebook with ckpsco members. Haha. Epic. ♥

And other than being the 2008 syf anniversary, it was the last day countdown to gongyan.
Gongyan was awesome. ♥



02 April 2010
Wonderful gongyan. ♥
I want more gongyans! Hahaha.
Love the seniors!
10.10
CO ♥

And it was Candy's birthday too! :D
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
It was only until P4 that we became quite close.
I still remember how we spell "innovative 1" as "inovative 1".
And I think our group rocks!
I remember doing the Social Studies project, building the cannon sculpture with you, then the guys do the report.
And in order to make them do work, we went and reward them.
Then how we would tell each other wait and walk home together.
It is only until the playground there where we would stop and depart.
And in p5 p6, when there is CO, we would walk together as TBY.
TBY is the best group lah! ♥
And how we would laugh at kenny, and dedrick and other teachers.
Miss those awesome times. ♥
Then when we were p6, every monday, we would be complaining about olivia and math and everything.
Even though those car rides were horrible, but Im sure we missed it very much.
And we would complain about the people there.
I guess, its all these complain that make us get going and give us a little break from the stressful psle life. :D



09 April 2010
HAPPY BIRTHDAY YENPING!
Hi octi, I wondered if you grew any extra legs. Heh.
CO rocks.
I remembered it was during CO when we started the adventure of sea creatures.
Heh.
Then we would play murderer, and anything we can think of.
And we would laugh at kenny, dedrick, and other teachers.
Omg, I really missed those CO times.
And everytime we stayed back, your maid will deliver some noodle/food.
And idk who started calling them noodles.
I think is you. HAHAHA.
But anyway, I think its CO that brought us closer. :D
CO ♥
Although you may prefer choir more, but still,
CO ROCKS. HAHA.



16 April 2010
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PRISCILLA!
HAPPY Paya DAY! :D
I really miss those awesome time when we spend together during p5.
Sometimes, I would just laugh at you doing dumb things, and those funny things you said. ♥
Remember KLTRQASB!
HEH.
CO ROCKS!
CO would have be boring without your presence.
And our tumei rocks! Haha.
Liuqin rocks! ♥
Remember those EZCO times, when we have to squeeze in the bus. And how we would complain about lollipop teacher. Heh.
And we would complain about the unfairness in choosing people to go dazu, instead of us.
And all of a sudden, kenny appeared. Heh.
Love those CO times when we would play and laugh at kenny, dedrick, and other teachers.
Omg, I really miss those time.
And somehow, something happened during p5-p6.
But its ok, we are still back.
We have our PAYA, which you claims to be YAPA instead.
Heh.
I remember it was one of the HCL remedials that I started laughing so crazily that even mr teo can't stand me.
We were discussing on Melvin I think.
And drawing some ugly face.
And we were shooting him with paper balls.
I can't remember much, but I know that afternoon was the best afternoon ever.
Im sad that the APA people are sitting behind,
and Y can't.
But I know, we can still have fun together. :D
PAYA ♥
And there is this PAY day, the day when 3 of us when out.
Sadly, A can't go.
That day was one of the awesome-est day ever.
The screamings, the fun we had. ♥
Thanks for being part of PAYA. ♥



28 April 2010
HI MINDY. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
Because of you, I made wednesday minday. :D
Haha, who call it isn't on a monday.
Thanks for making year1 CO life much more enjoyable.
The best thing of monday:
I get to sit opposite you and see you.
Heh.
Gongyan was awesome.
And I love how we would go omg, i see ... omg, i see ...
HAHAHA.
CO ROCKS. ♥
DHSCO ROCKS. ♥
DHSCOTBY ROCKS. ♥
HAPPY MINDAY BIRTHDAY. ♥



I LOVE APRIL. ♥


GONGYAN! :D

YAY.
Reached VCH and helped with ban yun before the rehearsal starts.
Before we even reach VCH, my feet alr hurts. ):
VCH reminds me of EZCO. :D Haha. And some scary incident that used to happen before.
Heh.

Then rehearsed from 1 all the way to 5+.
Time passed seriously very fast. Didn't know it was 5+ so fast.
But anyway, saw people watching us. Haha.

Had dinner, etc.
Then was time to pei yang qing xu.
So, me, zhixian, eezhen, choymun, yuewan was near the guan yue waiting room.
Liuqin and Pipa's waiting room is just next to guan yue's waiting room.
Ours was fulled so we went out.
Being so bored, we decided to play with our court shoes. :D
We made like obstacles for people who wanted to walk that lane.
Then everyone saw the "obstacles" was like shock.
And you see them, you laugh, etc.
Funny.
Then idk is it we laugh too loud, or jiayu happenly came here.
He was angry. ):
He thinks we are playing, etc, then making too much noises, chao dao ren jia. ):
Then we wore back our court shoes and start to pei yang qin xu.
This reminds me of kenny and the kenny drop the qin he incident.
Then we were like asking each other if you scared, etc.

GONGYAN 040210 officially started.
Then first bell rang. The bell for the first bell rang once.
A few minute later, the second bell rang. The bell for the second bell rang twice.
We were told to line according when we hear the second bell.
So people from yangqin, zhongruan, guanyue suddenly all appear.
We pai-ed for yanmenguan, while discussing about how scared we are, etc.

And it was time for us to go up. Something happened to the qin, but i forget what happened.
But i thought ymg was quite ok. HAHA. :D
Yay.

Next was zheng, and all of us were scared for huobajie.
People have been commenting on how bad our huobajie was. ):
So after zheng, was TBY. Yay.

Idk why, I totally forget on my "technique" on how to make me move.
I am suppose to think of something. But I wasn't. My mind was blank.
But oh well. I saw people.
And it ended.

Anyway, I think Im very lag. It was until the end, when I realise got extra chairs in the first row. Then short of 2 chairs for the second row.
):< angry with paiwei people. Stupid optical illusion. Wts. When we xia tai, I went over to the zhongruan waiting area and wang lao shi came and say we are good. Yay.

As quoted from jiayi's blog:

And you-know-what, xianyue kindof screwed the whole paiwei!
ahhhhhhh, was kinda pissed.
There was freaking two empty chairs stuck right in the middle and yibei and choymun had no chair since we didnt know where to sit.
My and yiyun's chair were like isolated and i dont know what funny paiwei is this, both of us formed a row wow.
There were three rows in the end. But the music was quite okay i guess, since wangguiying said so.
HAHAHA, reminds me of her talking to Yiru at backstage.

Then guanyue. Then paiwei for xianyue. Thought it was ok.
Anyway, xianyue damn hard to pai.
Unlike tby (hint hint). Haha.
Then was ruiwen's awesome solo. :D
Haha. Then during the guzheng solo, zhixian and I was discussing on paiwei for xianyue to sh.
I think our paiwei was awesome for senior high.
But according to yiyun, it isn't really, but at least better than normal lah. :D
Then senior high dazu. :D
Hua mu lan and Chang Cheng. :D

Then was combine co.
Yay. ♥
I love senior high co and combine co.
Esp combine co.
Haha.
I love chang di sui xiang.
Though I still haven't mastered the 5432 but oh well.

Then encored. Funny. Haha.
Everyone on stage was like laughing at how the people shouted for encore.
Wts. HAHAHA. (:
AWESOME. :D

As quoted from jiayi's blog again:

Then finally it ended, and had zhaoji by Dr.Foo.
He kept repeating the same thing, but all i know is that everyone had fun and gongyan was a total blast! <3
Took some TBY pictures after that, but some seniors werent there ):

Handover's gonna come very soon, and the Year4/Year6 seniors are leaving us very soon! I'm so gonna miss having fenzus and dazus with them ): (which includes combined hahah)
Aww arent you all touched LOL.
CO's gonna stop for the next two weeks (:
But i think im gonna miss paiwei practices, jixun, fenzu dazu and all with the seniors!

2nd April totally rocked! 华夏情2010 <3

♥ 华夏情 '10.