Motivational Camp :)

After 3 days, the motivational camp had ended. And I kind of miss it. Seriously, I think that I am motivated. But I don't think this will last for very long. Eg. Yesterday, I planned the schedules of what to do. But, in the end, I end up doing nothing. I end up playing computer. :P

Let me tell you what I had learnt after these 3 days. On the first day, I learnt
1) The difference between a person who live and exist
2) Choices have Consequences
3) Past does not equals to Future
4) Discipline
5) Greatest failure in life is not participate
6) Ultimate Success Formula
7) Self-esteem
8) How to remember things easily
9) 9 principles of memory

At first, I thought Melvin was Adam. But he was Melvin. Melvin Chew. He is FUNNY. He told us jokes which makes us laugh the whole day. He told us his life story, of what he did when he was young. I thought it was fake until... the 3rd day (tell you more about it later).

On the second day, we learnt:
1) 3 revision methods
2) Why must we make notes
3) Whole brain works

We were laughing all day long when suddenly, Melvin showed us pictures of the lives of the unfortunate. He let us realised how lucky we are. But what we do was to complain this, complain that. And suddenly, he shouted "WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING?!" I thought he was just to make laugh, but it was not. He told us how lucky we are, when we have our parents to scold us, ave food to eat, born normally. Other people out there lost their parents, have no food to eat.

Then, he told us to close our eyes and imagine. He turn off all the lights. He called us to imagine. When I was imagine, I feel like crying. I realised how my parents had cared and loved me for the past 12 years but when I slowly grow up, I started lying and shout at them. When they asked me a question, i choose to ignore them. Sometimes, I knew the answer but i said I don't know.

I feel like crying. But I try to. I remembered that my mother was scolding me when I answer back loudly. I showed her my "blackface". Few minutes later, I saw her crying. However, i did not care. In my heart, i was thinking " cry lor not my business..." or "blahblahblah"(meaning i don't care). WHen i think of this, I cried. I felt so sorry for not apologizing to her and even don't care.

Almost everyone in the room cried. I heard people saying "no!" and stuff. Even people like Priscilla, Brandon, and other people cried. I wanted to saying the 3 words "I LOVE YOU" to my parents but i didn't. All because of the thing called Paisei.

But I have a letter for them:

Dear Daddy and Mummy,

Sorry for making you angry all the time. Sorry for shouting at you. Sorry for any wrong things I had done.
I would want to thank you for taking care of me for the pass 12 years. your have cared, loved and do whatever for me. However, as years passed, I started to misbehave and even make you angry. You would buy anything for me. However, I only used least than 5 times and i chank it aside. You will be always there for me whenever I need you.
All I want to say is I LOVE YOU.
Now, I would like to make this promise. I will take good care of you no matter how sick and old you are. I will always love you. I will always give you the best I can give. Whatever it is, I will take good care of you like you did before.

I LOVE YOU!!!

Love,
Ya Rui