(Sorry... So late then blog about it...) I woke up early in the morning, around 5.50am. Because, I must reach school by 6.30.
When I reached the school, it was still very dark. Everyone was wearing the uniform. Some of them are tuning their instruments while others are sitting on the chairs. My instrument was already tuned by the instructors. I was sitting on my chair don't know what to do.
Seeing my doing nothing, one of the teacher-in-charge, Miss Seah, called me down to help me tie a stupid ugly red ribbon on my hair. I look stupid with the thing. Then, Priscilla came. After having the ribbon on her hair too, we sat down and discussed how and where to move. Move as in swaying...(That's what the conductor wants) Then Mdm Min helped everyone to put make-up. I think I looked very ugly in it. I went to rub some of it off. :P
After some rehearsal, we board the bus which fetch us to Singapore Conference Hall. During the journey to the Singapore Conference Hall, Mr Seah and the conductor talked to us through the mic. The conductor let us eat some marsh mellow and mnm chocolates. He said that last time, when he go for competition, he was very scared. He also said that eating these stuff can let us be not so frightened.
When we reached there, we settled down and get our instruments tuned. We waited for quite a long time before we went into the tuning room to get our instuments tuned again and rehearse for the last time before we go up stage. We only have 15 minutes. 15 minutes!
When we were rehearsing for the last time, I saw Mr Teo taking photo of me! I was like OMG! How come he was here? I tried to look away, hoping my face will not be seen. Mrs Wee was there too.
After the precious 15 minutes, we proceed to the place, where we can hear the school in front of us, Evergreen Primary School, played. The instructors said that they will most likely get Gold with Honours. They played very loud.
When we were waiting for our turn to go up stage, my ruan instructor, Kenny keep telling me not to be jing zhang(scared,nervous). Maybe he was afraid that I was so nervous that I can't play the solo. LOl. But seriously, I am not that nervours. Maybe the most is a little? Then Pricilla said that when Kenny tell me to to be nervous, he is making me to be nervous. Zi Minh said that she is very scared. Very nervous. Then Kenny said "Nervous/scared for what?"
Then what happened next was very funny. We then waited outside the hall(we will be entering after Evergreen play finish their song.) Priscilla was taking 2 instrument, just in case if 1 of our LiuQin's string "broke"(duan) or something wrong with it. Priscilla was saying it was very heavy. Then, Kenny helped her to take the extra LiuQin. With one hand taking the extra LiuQin, another hand taking the box of ruan's string, he was talking to us. Suddenly, he dropped the box of strings. The conductor turned and see what had happened. After finding out that what had dropped was just the box, the conductor said "Don't scare me!" All of us were laughing.
While waiting, the instructors helped the conductor to adjust his tie. Then Priscilla told me that the conductor like marrying. I totally agree with her. Then almost all the instructors wish him good luck.
Finally, its our turn. Before I went in, Kenny said dont be nervous again. As I went in, I was telling myself "All right! This is it. We must get Gold."
When we was up on the stage, I tried to open the score but could not. Most likely, the angle of the pu jia(something for us to put our score) was too steep. I was like OMG again. What are we going to do. Luckily, we(Priscilla and I. Both of ur were sharing the score) have already memorized the score. So, the problem is not so serious after all.
After we settled down(cut the story short, cut the Jun Ting called us sit down and Conductor come up on stage part), the conductor raised his hands up, as we prepared to play the first song: Meng Cai. The song soon ended. I felt it was great. Maybe just a little too soft...
The next song was Yue Yun Chu Zheng. I played as loud as I can.(The song suppose to be loud)I heartbeat was just a little faster than my normal one. Until...
Until bar 68, my heartbeat started to increased. It went faster, and faster. And it was the fastest and bar 80... The bar before my solo... I saw the conductor's hand shaking. I saw Kenny, A bit worried for me(maybe not) The played the solo, making it the best ever. I moved a little, giving my best shot. At first(the day before SYF), I was reluctant to move. But when i think of what Priscilla and I had said before "We will moved no matter what. So what if pai sei! For Gold, we must move) However, nothing is perfect. When I was playing the "Re Mi Soh Fa Mi..." the "Soh Fa Mi" the "mi" I am suppose to lun(in the ruan "language") I did lun, but I did not lun man. However, I did continued, making sure there will not be any mistake.
Soon, the solo had ended but the song has not. The last part must be very loud. Again, I played as loud as possible. The last part has the drum which make it so nice that almost everyone thinks that we should get gold.
"Guang!" The song ended, and we left the hall. When we are going out, Miss Seah praised us by saying "Well done!" And some of my friends, including Kenny(who always say my solo very nan ting), said that I played the solo quite nice. However, Priscilla spotted the "never lun man" mistake. I regretted for not lun the "mi"man. If I had lun man, we might get Gold!
Anyway, through this competition, I had learnt and experience something. It was what I had learnt during the motivational camp. "Greatest Failure is Not Participating 100%" Personally, I think I could do better, I am only participating about 96-98%. Now, I regretted.
Ok... Now I am telling you why I felt disappointed, sad, insulted and happy...
I felt disappointed because I think we should get Gold instead of a silver.
I felt sad because the P6 may not need to come for CO. I think I will surely miss it.
I felt insulted because of 3 things:
1) When we were about to board the bus back to school, I heard some people (from Ngee Ann Pri) "insulted" us. In our CO, we only have 3 LiuQin players. And they went counting... 1...2...3... "Yi yer... Only 3 LiuQin..." They seemed to be cursing us to get COP... Then I told Priscilla about it. Then we went cursing them too! :P " So what you all have alot of people? Later everybody the instument zou yin!"
2) Last saturday, one of my friend from Kong Hwa, who also went for the Dunman High camp ask me for the results. I fake her that we get Gold with Honours. I knew that they would get Honours too. So I ask them what song they played. She said that they played Qin Bing Ma Yong. And she asked me the same question. I said we played Yue Yun Chu Zheng, the song the combine group played during the Dunman High camp. She replied "Ahya that song easy lah!"
I felt insulted upon hearing it. It is our choice piece and she said it was easy. Yes. I agree that it is easy(for the pro ones) but she was like insulting us. We spent months and months practising and playing Meng Cai and Yue Yun Chu Zheng. And she said it was easy. The feeling was like... Very hard to describe. And what is worst is that she said that when her school played the choice piece, the suona (one of the loudest instrument) was slow by 1 beat! And they still can manage to get Gold with Honours! I was like thinking how can this be possible?
3) When we were waiting for our turn to go into the tuning room, the school (not sure of the name)sitting next to us said: "No fear! They have scores!"(heard it from Zi Minh) Firstly, we can bring our scores. There is no "law" in this competition which says that we can't bring our scores in. Even the conductor said that we can bring it in! So what is wrong with bringing scores into the competition? Secondly, the judges jugde by the music, the quality, how well we can play. And not whether you are looking the scores a not.
I felt happy because today, I went to check the results of every school. I was shocked to see that many schools have "dropped" eg. Maha Bodhi. They get Gold with Honours last last year and this year, they only get Gold. Out of around 40+ schools, only 5-6 schools get Honours. Even the Evergreen did not get Honours! I was so happy... Maybe is that the expectation is higher than last last year...
This friday, we will get to eat Pizzas! Yummy!
Now, I feel that Orchestra has become part of my live. I somehow LOve and Hate it...
When people ask me if i like CO, I might say okok(more of a no)... But now, I kind of fall in love with it. LOL...
Anyway, this moment will always stays in my mind. The experience, the Outcomes, I shall always treasure it!